The last few days I have really been struggling as I have felt away from God. It has not been that I am doing bad things or that my mind is in the gutter but rather that it has been so easy to put him on the "back burner". It's crazy because I have been thinking and talking alot about God but yet I have also felt disconnected and away. Interestingly enough yesterday's sermon was on this exact topic which is an obvious answer from God, saying "Hey Eric, I'm right here with you".
This has really been weighing on my heart because I am 100% sure that I am where I am because of God and if I take two seconds to think back on tough times, I see that God has always been 100% faithful to me, even when I have so many times strayed. But why is it so easy to stray from God? Is it the fact that he is so faithful that we know he will always be there? Or is it because so many things in our world and society are not centered around God, thus we get distracted? Is it that I am just not focused on what God wants for me?
I wrote a post a while ago about how God uses tough times in our lives to pull us closer. But I don't want to be "that guy"! I want God to be #1 in my life at all times and its a shame that I would require God to cause bad things in order for me to remember him and seek him!
It is my prayer, and I hope you will share this prayer with me, that God help me to stay more focused on him, that my eyes are fixed on his plan for my life and that my faith grows stronger than it has ever been. I want, with everything I have, to be exactly what God wants me to be and I want him to use me in every way he sees fit.
-Prayin out loud!